April 13, 2012 by Beth Hess
For an entire year we didn’t see each other. Ok, we saw each other, and sometimes I missed you, but I didn’t let you in.
Then one January night, I said “Hello” again. And it was sweet. And I wanted more. And we haven’t said Good-bye in 3 months now.
But when I let you in, I don’t feel good. For a moment perhaps, but never in the long run. And my reflection in the mirror is harder to take after too much time with you. I don’t like who I am when I crave you. I don’t like how you control my thoughts, cloud my judgment, and call me back to you after a small taste.
I feel better when we’re apart. I am stronger when I say “Yes, I see you, but I can’t let you in.”
So here we are at Good-bye. Again. Maybe for good this time.
Good-bye, sugar. Good-bye.
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