October 18, 2014 by Beth Hess
The small man
Builds cages for everyone
While the sage,
Who has to duck his head
When the moon is low,
Keeps dropping keys all night long
—Hafiz, a Sufi poet from the 14th century
Those of you who have been reading my blog for any length of time will recognize this poem. You know my heart’s desire to be a key-dropper.
A grace-giver. Hope-extender. Hand-holder. Encouragement-spreader.
But just days before I committed to a Sugar Sober journey, this poem, which is never far from my mind, rattled my own cage in a new way.
For as long as I reject the notion that I, myself, am one of the prisoners, stuck in places where I settle for being less than I was created for, there is no way for me to give you much of anything meaningful.
If I do not have the keys, I most certainly cannot share them with you.
The 31 Days of October, then, began as a journey for myself. A clear call to drop the “I know something you don’t” act and get real with myself about the places that entrap me. I wasn’t sure what to expect. And I’m still not sure where it’s headed.
But one of the most unexpected blessings of these last days has been the grace of how God works. How he simultaneously hands me keys and calls me to drop them for my fellow captives. While also using their strength and stories to light the path for me.
These are other Beautiful Rowdy Prisoners plotting their own escape. The ones I was only slightly aware of just a few weeks ago. I was too wrapped up in my own chains to hear the others rattling near me.
I was unprepared for the ways in which this path to freedom would be such a wonderful give and take. Leading, then following. Push and pull.
I am learning moment by moment to lay down my “I can do it myself” attitude and find hope in the stories of those who’ve gone before and camaraderie with those birthing from their own cocoons.
For all who have found hope in my story — for yourself or for someone you love — please know how very much I am blessed by you. Every “like” … every tweet … every private message … every comment has been a fresh breeze into the dankness I have sat in for far too long.
All of us together. Walking each other home.
p.s. If you’re feeling a little weary of this topic, hang with me. Tomorrow’s post is especially for you.
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